you run away but you ain't moving at all

Parent-teacher meeting as well as the further education talks on Saturday was kind of like a complete waste of time to me, since none of my family members was interested in going and I didn't feel any need to attend any crappy and useless university talks, I was just reading the book Jas lent me, 'The Witch of Portobello', most of the time. Mainly, my aim of going was merely to collect my result slip which I couldn't receive, of course, till I met up with Mr Lim.

Lol the talk with Mr Lim didn't turn out as expected. Instead of talking to us about our results, he turned round the tables and asked how he could be a better teacher instead since he was relatively new to teaching. He said he was disappointed that Weiliang and I did not speak out more often in class to stimulate everyone to think so I reckon Weiliang and I would have to speak out more often in future eh? So that everyone would be more interested in the lesson and their intellect will be stimulated. (:

Well he did talk to us a bit about our results, and I told him my poor grades were a result of not studying since I had zero motivation during the holidays, which is true of course. Being stuck in the JC system for 3 years, I am definitely growing weary, and sometimes I really wonder if I made the right choice. Nevertheless, I will be glad to see the back of this year, even though it means I would have to face the terrifying prospect of collecting my A' level results. The last time I had such a fear was when I was collecting my PSLE, but I wouldn't really say I was scared then because frankly, no one gives a damn about PSLE scores. But A's is an entirely different story altogether.

Being caught in a world where you are held steadfast to expectations from society, your parents, your teachers and your friends, it is inevitable that you can feel suffocated at times, when you seem unable to meet any of the expectations from everyone. There is this innate desire to escape, to establish yourself as who you want to be, but of course, you can't. That's definitely what some of us are feeling right now. Mr Lim was right on one point though, I desperately need to rejuvenate myself, and experience something new to spark my life again. Maybe a trip overseas in the June holidays.. Hm...

Mid years? SHUCKS!