a hungry sq...

is a scary one. I only just got home and what can I say? I am freaking tired. Pretty amusing/fulfilling day though. Econs financial quiz.. Lol..

1st disaster. Supposed to meet up with Ethel and Jas for breakfast at Macs at Clementi, and the first disaster of the day happened cause I couldn't find where Macs is, so I walked around Clementi and still couldn't find. So they had to buy takeaway for me. How noob.

2nd disaster. Then, we took a bus down to NUS. Got down at the bus stop, then we laughed at some noobs from RJC i think who got down at the wrong stop. Then Ethel was like saying "They so stupid, I think we win them already." Looked around, walked to the LT and guess what? You got it, we alighted at the wrong stop too, 2 stops earlier than our destination and we had to go ask some of the students there for directions. -.-

3rd disaster. The Econs financial quiz itself. Ok, so there were 40 MCQs and 5 problem sums. Not easy. 1 hour. So we decided to go through every question 1 by 1 together to make sure we all get the correct answer. In the end? We finished only 17 MCQs in half an hour, and we decided to split up the questions then, when everyone else had splitted up the questions from the start. So we couldn't finish our quiz. Was pretty darn hard anyway, testing on TPP (Total Physical Product) and some other wtf-i-dunno-what's-it stuff.

4th disaster. Ok, lunch time. They catered buffet and the food looked pretty good. But all the RJ noobs and stuff had rushed straight for the food right after we were dismissed. So us being gracious, decided to wait around first. And when we got there, yes the food were gone. Totally gone. Talk about gross under-production. They are studying econs in university and they can't even cater to social optimal. Tsk tsk. And they ordered takeaway nasi lemak for us from somewhere, and quoting Jasmine, it's "dam disgusting".

But after that it went alright. VJC, Dunman, RJC, NJC were the finalists, no surprises except Dunman. Was expecting HC or AC there instead. RJ was the obvious best team up there but some smart play from NJC won them the championship at the last question, winning by 2 points. Haha Raffles you loser.

Went to JE library to study after that. Pretty productive but I almost fell asleep a few times. Tsk. Geograpy has that amazing effect on me. Anyway, I wanted to have dinner at 7 pm, but I was doing Geography and didn't look at the time, and when I next looked up, it was already 8! (Ok, Ms Lee I am not slacking, you see??) So I packed up and came home without any dinner.

But it's okay, Macs is on the way to my house, I can already smell it from here. (:

hard on you

I know it must have been a difficult decision to make, but I am behind you all the way! (:

Good luck for your A's next year then Ang Huimin!

now that it's done

Long day basically. Studied at the canteen alone from like 3 to 8 by myself is no mean feat, you can try! Did my geog stuff and some econs, stoned from time to time but basically still quite alright, quite productive.

Oh, and I am pissed about my CIP hours. I didn't really look in detail but it seems like my peer coaching CIP hours are gone because I quitted this year in J2, and my CCA teacher-in-charge apparently forgot to key in all our CIP hours. Tsk tsk.. But oh well, the CIP hours don't really matter much anyway I suppose..

Was helping lingxin with maths just now in school. Wah... Haha, never mind. Haha isn't it a pity if you get your 4 As and don't do well in Maths? Good luck hur. Erm. 5 As ttm okay?

I never saw it coming, I should have started running a long long time ago.
And I never thought I would doubt you, I am better off without you, more than you, more than you know.

Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

self-realisation... eventually

I suddenly feel very down for no reason.









Must be the A level's getting to me.


Yes that must be it.


Nothing else. Nothing, please.

apache.

We once walked out on the beach and once I almost touched your hand.
You know I miss you.
Don't you know that I miss you?
I would write to you from a museum mile, a toast to you,
your whisper, your smile.
If you don't know, honey, why'd you just say so?
And I need this now more than I ever did.
Should have never started, ain't that the way it always ends?
On my life I'll try today, there's so much I've felt I should say, but.
Even if your heart would listen, doubt I could explain.
So here we are now, a sip of wine, a sip of water.
Someday maybe, maybe someday we'll be smarter.


I need to feel peaceful.

pure pessimism

After an intense discussion with Ms Literature and ____ just now, I officially conclude that I believe AP is a representation of pure pessimism.

Though I won't write that in essays of course, polarity ftw in exams.

she just couldn't see

There was a blind girl who hated herself just because she was blind. She hated everyone, except her loving boyfriend. He was always there for her. She said that if she could only see the world, she would marry her boyfriend.

One day, someone donated a pair of eyes to her and then she could see everything, including her boyfriend. Her boyfriend asked her, "Now that you can see the world, will you marry me?" The girl was shocked when she saw that her boyfriend was blind too, and refused to marry him.

Her boyfriend walked away in tears, and later wrote a letter to her saying..... "Just take care of my eyes dear. I'll always love you forever.."

you promised me

Promises are whispers of what the human soul truly wishes to be true. Whispers of ideals, that, sadly, are in no shape or form able to remain whole within the grasp of the brutal mistress that is reality.

past deception point

Ok I did okay for Lit, above expectations after the *cough* rumours that were flying around spread by a certain male lit teacher after marking. I guess I am quite glad I did ok, considering that I felt I wrote crap. Did okay for human geog too; Nazri won me by 4 marks, and I think I better go to him for h. geog (or maybe CLAIRE) and pnp consultation from now on. :-)

Sometimes, I feel really bad that I keep saying I will fail but I ended up passing. But I really didn't expect to pass okay, I swear! I guess I can be quite lucky with my academics sometimes, and I need to believe in myself more.

And stupid Lam, I am glad for you that you improved so much. Ish, no u! Loser! Short prick!

palm trees not on an oasis

Ok I already know the marks of all the papers which I can pass.

Now awaiting Lit and Geog, those I know I can't pass.

Sigh.

going down and under.

Ok.

I am gonna fail lit! I think. Most probably. 26/50 so far for paper 1. 16/25 for othello, which is okay, but 10/25 for an uncomplete cnc essay. The 10/25 really sucks. Didn't have enough time for the cnc cause I spent too long on the pnp and othello essay. And considering that I have never gotten higher than 8/25 for a pnp essay before, my time spent on it is wasted, should have focused on cnc instead. F***! See how it goes when I get back pnp and paper 5. And paper 5 is probably worse than paper 1, so I am screwed.

Ah, I failed my lit.

Mr Sas, please don't come kill me. Maybe you should just stop reading my blog. :D

write me an epitaph

So, it's lit paper tomorrow morning and I am still awake now. Gosh lingxin and geraldine are sooo funny.

Ok I think I am gonna die for tomorrow. So good game.








Sometimes, don't you wish you can turn back time? To put some things right, to accomplish what you had once set out to do but failed halfway, to escape from something that hit you really hard in the gut. Too bad you can't.

I have a powerful kind of aching inside me now.