paradoxical indeed.

sq is sad.





):

You wanna know why?


preppy says:
was othello easy?
//shuqun indifferent yet a total wreck says:
dunno, first time writing full othello essay. cnc might have gone a bit out of point cause i wrote different stuff from the other guys. they going on about domestication of women which i didnt really see. sigh
preppy says:
maybe ur fats blinded you from the blinkers of the truth
preppy says:
:)
preppy says:
nevermind la
preppy says:
lose more weight then can see next time

ZZZ

preppy says:
night dude
preppy says:
eh...dun tell the whole world i call u fatso la...wait they think i bully u lei

This person on MSN, whom I shall keep anonymous, is bullying me to no end. Someone save me plssssssss.

Mr Sas: Good luck fatso
Mr Sas: For tomorrow

I got pwnt. U for lit nowzxzxz.

I realise I really suck at eating crabs. Just went out to have some chilli crabs to satisfy my cravings and I can't do shit with the crab. I don't know how to extract the meat from beneath the layer and layer of hard shell, and I suck at biting the shell to extract the meat, I am more busy spitting the shell bits than actually eating the meat.

I am such a sad noob, I can't eat one of my favourite food in the world. ): This is crap.

Back to my secret rendezvous with Ms Economics and David Ricardo and Keynes.

did you know Malthus was a classical economist?

According to David Ricardo, even if a country could produce everything more efficiently than another country, it would reap gains from specializing in what it was best at producing and trading with other nations. Ricardo believed that wages should be left to free competition, so there should be no restrictions on the importation of agricultural products from abroad.

The benefits of comparative advantage are both distributional and related to improved real income. Within Ricardo's theory, distributional effects implied that foreign trade could not directly affect profits, because profits change only in response to the level of wages. The effects on income are always beneficial because foreign trade does not affect value.

Comparative advantage forms the basis of modern trade theory, reformulated as the Heckscher-Ohlin theorem, which states that a country has a comparative advantage in the production of a product if the country is relatively well-endowed with inputs that are used intensively in producing the product.

Memorise this for a powerful intro for CA and IT essays shuqun plzkthnxbye.








Don't you wish you were born 200 years earlier? Then, any public declaration that you make that uses a bit of common sense will be inducted into the "Famous quotes" hall of fame where your future, future descendants will have to learn.

Leonardo Fibonacci came up with this sequence. 1,1,2,3,5,8,13,21. The famous Fibonacci sequence where each number is made up of the sum of the 2 preceding numbers. Gosh, why didn't I think of it?!

28,19,12,4,-2,-10,-56.

SQ's famous sequence. Find out the pattern from 1 number to the next and I will treat you your yearly supply of bubble tea for your next 10 years.

EDIT: Hahaha was talking to G just now.

G: So, you're pretty fat and ugly, how do you feel about that.
Me: I am reading geog now, avoid discouraging me now plzkthnx.
G: Truth wad. I mean, what's so good about being a fatty like you?
Me: Hm.. Fat kids are harder to kidnap. You see, when people like David Lam tries to kidnap me, it takes at least 4 of him to carry me and 1 to open the van door and another 3 to push me into the van forcefully. And I eat about 3 bowls of rice per meal so I will probably make the kidnappers bankrupt and they would release me even before my parents try to pay the ransom.
G: ROFL.

Fat is the new trend.

a glimpse of truth and reality

I don't know what's worse, doing the exams or getting back the results. Have been trying to study whenever I go to the library, since i do zero mugging at home. Go to the library about 4 times a week, and each time a few hours. Read and read the notes, but nothing seems to go in. Write and write notes, and you're merely copying lecture notes and nothing goes in still. Maybe I just lost interest in studying my current subjects, especially geography. Damn damn damn, I should have taken CSE instead of geography.

Ok so now a realistic projection of my mye grades:
Econs: S
Geography: S
Lit: E

Those are probably the best I can get. Lol I am not smarter than any of you, nor are any of you dumber than most hwa chongians. If my mye really screws up bad, I think i better start serious mugging. If you think jy is the most antisocial mugger you know, you haven't seen me. Really, when I get serious, jy is nothing. Nothing.

I can get a 100x more antisocial than jy. You'll see.

Lol I got pwned by NS medical checkup today. It was at CMPB at 1.30 and I reached there slightly early. Filled up some forms, queued up a bit and sat around waiting for my turn. The form that we had to fill up required us to indicate our highest level of education ATTAINED. So I looked at the options. PSLE, O levels, N levels, A levels, and a few others. And I have no O levels and no A levels yet, so zzz....

Went to Station 2 for my first station, to check my hearing. Thought I would screw this up since I am always blasting music on my earphones and I am probably half deaf already but it went really well and I was assigned pes A for this category =X Then went Station 3 to take an X-ray for the first time in my whole life. Went to the dentistry station next and I got pes A for this station as well. It's so funny, getting pes A for physical condition but when my NAPFA results come out I am gonna drop to pes B or C or something =D

Then I had to take this blood and urine test. I had just urined before the urine test so when they passed me the cup I was like 'Shit!' Spent 5 min in the toilet forcing the forces of nature to come. Zzz. And the medic took so much of my blood that I seriously thinks it's a cheap thrill for him to draw my blood or something.

Then they took my blood pressure and height and stuff. This part freaked me out. The other guys usually took their blood pressure test once but I had to take it thrice.

Medic: Your blood pressure seems quite high.
Me: ... (Shit!)
Medic: Have you been sleeping late recently?
Me: Yea around 4 to 5 am everyday.
Medic: No wonder.
Me: Ah. (Phew...)

Then I had to go for some other tests which is not convenient to talk about here because it's out of bounds to girls (: But I got pwned hard seriously, by their IQ test. The IQ test was the longest station, took about 2 hours plus. It's UNFAIRRRR. There was this big section of the IQ test testing us on science and physics questions. Gosh, I am a freaking arts student! And I always thought I had a reasonable IQ, but I didn't get to finish most of the sections. Usually 30-35 questions in around 11 minutes, and there was about 10 groups of such questions. I usually linger too long on 1 difficult question. Damn! I must look like a dumbass now. But their IQ test is seriously quite tough. ): Mostly maths questions though.

So now, I have to go back in July to retake my blood pressure test. Zzz. I shall sleep early nowadays then, before 2 at least, and before 11 after school reopens. Stop asking me to dota! Pfft.

And this is why I hate going for medical check ups, I don't wanna find out something is wrong with my body.

think you know? think again.

All of your life, you've been lied to.

You've been told what life is supposed to be about. Grow up, do well in school, make friends, get a girlfriend or boyfriend, get a good job, get married, get a nice house and have kids. Watch tv, go to church, vote, find some hobbies to entertain you. Donate money to charity. Go on vacation. Get old, retire, spend time with the grandkids. Look back on your life with nostalgia, look forward to the afterlife of your choosing.

This is what you're supposed to do, this is what normal people do. This is what everyone else is doing. Oh sure, there are a few aberrations here and there, sometimes some people slip off this track, but you can get back on at any time.

Of course, when you actually look at the world around you, you may see something entirely different.

See that young married couple living next door, with the wife gardening in the front yard while the kids play out back? She's snowed under with Xanax all the time, without which she'd be in a continuous state of anxiety. And her 6 year old son, he's following in mom's footsteps already, taking his daily dose of Ritalin to keep him tranquil enough to sit still all day at school.

She stopped sleeping with her husband several years ago, but that's ok, cause he sneaks off a couple times a week and has sex with street prostitutes in the back seat of his car, or a nearby motel. He feels a bit bad for them, and tips them extra.

His favorite prostitute is always glad to see him, because he's pleasant enough and an easy $75. Too bad they can't all be like him. She gets beaten up and raped by johns multiple times a year, but that's ok, she can handle it, cause even at its worst this job is still better than what she went through as a child. Besides, there's no other way she could support her crack cocaine habit.

And the cop who tries to arrest her, last night he arrested the neighborhood marijuana dealer, then went home and got nice and legally drunk on jack daniels.

And the cop's daughter, the pretty high school cheerleader, sneaks off and vomits after every meal so she won't get fat.

But these are all small scale problems. Don't forget that, several times a century, often enough to happen at least once during the average human lifetime, all the most powerful nations of the world divide up into sides and begin slaughtering anyone they can find on the opposing side by the millions. This is agreed by all to be unfortunate but necessary.

And the city you live in, if you're in a western country and living in a city, has already been targetted by some country's nuclear weaponry. A few pushes of the right buttons, and you'll be vaporized, or survive and live in some radioactive wasteland. But that's ok, because it probably won't happen in the immediate future, so you might as well go out and buy the week's groceries.

Beneath the thin veneer of civilization lies a howling madness, and the average normal human being has the ability to commit genocide during the day, then come home and tuck the kids in at night, or to ignore the pain of a billion people in misery while mowing the lawn or doing christmas shopping.

The Big Lie is that all of the problems of human life are separate. If you compartmentalize them all, you can convince yourself that once you lose that 40 pounds, or get more money, or get your husband to stop beating you, or finally kick that addiction, you'll be a normal happy person like everyone else. And once you get the right politician elected, or win the war, or convert the infidels to your religion, the world will be a happy place.

The problems of life are all symptoms of the same cause. The locks on your doors which you need to keep out burglars, the schoolyard bully, the serial killer, the drug addict, the drug dealer, the billionaire who thinks he's being exploited by the poor, the millions of soldiers fighting for peace, the enslavement or slaughter of entire races of people, and your own unhappiness, all are interconnected. They are all part of one problem.

I wish I could define the problem for you, or offer a solution. Human beings seem to have a basic design flaw. We're a fucked up species, striving to be healthy and happy while simultaneously destroying ourselves and each other in a million different ways.

The only positive note I can end this on is that it's better to understand all this than to be ignorant of it, I think.

Actually...

I think David Lam was right all along.

everything would be alright

We bought some wine and some paper cups,
near your daughter's school when we picked her up,
and drove to a cemetery on a hill, on a hill.
and we watched the plumes paint the sky gray,
as she laughed and danced through the field of grapes.
there i knew it would be alright
that everything would be alright,
would be alright.

OMG ETHEL OWNED ME SO BAD

Meh I got shitass luck these days.

So.

Spent my whole day today so far reading Wiki, watching youtube, anything to procrastinate.

I think I truly deserve to die, for more reasons than one.

Shuqun ah shuqun, what's happening to you?











Maybe, just maybe, I made the wrong decision 2 years ago.

I am an Econs kid

Went for NUS talk for the Econs financial quiz thingy today. Ethel, as expected, was late to arrive and first to leave :) K, just joking, but Jas and I waited like half an hour for her! Took a bus in despite initial plans to take a cab. Well, I haven't really been to NUS but now that I took a clearer look at it, the facilities doesn't seem very good. NTU and SMU both look better but I guess NUS is still the best uni out of the 3? Weiliang told me that SMU is now Singapore's best uni though? Someone confirm with me on this?

Anyway the first speaker who spoke from 10 to 12 was okay, quite humourous. Had a break for lunch and they serve us brinjal. So weird right. Out of us 3, only Ethel ate the disgusting thing. Lol. The next speaker talked about the more important topic but he was kinda boring and we spent the whole time copying notes and didn't listen to much of what he said.

Ended at 3, and Ethel cabbed home. Ironic since she just attended a financial quiz on saving money. >.> Jas and I saved money and took 96 back to Clementi. Haha.

Haven't studied since I came back home, but I looked through the financial quiz notes. The sample questions seem quite easy but some part of the notes are weird cause I just can't get my calculations right. Anyway only 4 teams out of all the teams will make it to the final, so Hwa Chong, RJ, NJ, etc, we are here to make up the numbers for you now (:

Definitely lagging behind like crazy on my studies. I still can't motivate myself at home, need to go to the library to study and even then, it doesn't guarantee that anything goes into my head. I am probably gonna do as badly as I did for common tests going at this rate. Sigh.

Sometimes we struggle and struggle, eager to conform with the masses and do what we're supposed to do. But when will we learn it will all come to naught. No two people are the same.

PS. I didn't run today, I feel so guilty. A bit sleepy after waking up at 7.30 am, and David kept playing MSN poker (gosh he got owned so bad) so I didn't run. ):

A wake up call to a rented room, sounded like an alarm of impending doom. To warn us it's only a matter of time, before we all burn, before we all burn.

Haha, went for a jog just now. Ran about 3 km only, cause it looked like rain and I was caught in the rain while running back. I am sure Mr Sas the busybody must be very happy lol, since he thinks I am fat and look like a mirror. But yea I really am growing fatter, and I think I should keep myself in shape, unlike Mr Sas who has no more NS and thus can't keep himself in shape ;-)

And Death Cab's Narrow Stairs album is really good, Grapevine Fires is such a sad song. Aw..

is it so cold//or is it just me

I woke up at 7.45 am this morning. Wow that's the earliest I have woken up in a long time besides normal school days. Probably cause I slept earlier last night, at 1.30 am instead of the usual 3 or 4 am.

Going to school for Geography later. Oh well I am certainly not looking forward to it, but there's no choice I guess. I am so sick of everything though.

I see it right in front of me, a vision in my head, and I know this is as real as a daydream gets.

This guy is good.



Wait till his voice breaks, then aw..

before i hit the ground

But I get the strangest feeling that you've gone away, will you find out who you are too late to change?